It's already 2pm and instead of cramming for my exam, I'm blogging. I seriously need to learn how to prioritize better. It's not that I can't do it, it's just that the mind is willing but the flesh is weak.
I hate it when it happens. It makes me feel like a hypocrite.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
In the end of the day,
I have been sitting here for 10 minutes trying to figure out what to write, but so far all I got is nothing. Absolutely nothing. Its not that I have nothing to say, nor have opinions on matters. Some are not really worth mentioning anyway.
So what the heck am I doing right now writing empty words when I really have nothing to say or opine about? Its not like you would like to know about my studies,to which its abysmal, or my insecurities, to which you know of, or my deep dark secrets, which, I have none, mind you.
Blogging used to be a fad, a way to vent anger or joy or worries in the world wide web where everybody but nobody reads it. I have no idea how many readers I have. For all you know, I might only have one. So I blog, thinking that someone out there cares about what I have to say.
So that was what I did, I blogged. I thought it was cool. But as time passes, one by one, my friends left and the urge to blog for them slowly fades, like a passing trend. So it was then I realise that there was a co-relation between friends and blogs.
I blog for my friends, so that they can read my junk and crap and they would not judge me. Pardon the hiatus, exams ant the holidays took a toll on my writing skills. I was away from this so long that in fact, I almost forgot my blog website.
Maybe that is a sign, that I should stop blogging. After all, I have Facebook, Twitter, Skype, etc. Or it could be a sign that I should kick my procrastination habbit to the kerb for good, and continue blogging. I do like to write, after all.
Either way, it's just trying to tell me something but I'm not listening to it.
So what the heck am I doing right now writing empty words when I really have nothing to say or opine about? Its not like you would like to know about my studies,to which its abysmal, or my insecurities, to which you know of, or my deep dark secrets, which, I have none, mind you.
Blogging used to be a fad, a way to vent anger or joy or worries in the world wide web where everybody but nobody reads it. I have no idea how many readers I have. For all you know, I might only have one. So I blog, thinking that someone out there cares about what I have to say.
So that was what I did, I blogged. I thought it was cool. But as time passes, one by one, my friends left and the urge to blog for them slowly fades, like a passing trend. So it was then I realise that there was a co-relation between friends and blogs.
I blog for my friends, so that they can read my junk and crap and they would not judge me. Pardon the hiatus, exams ant the holidays took a toll on my writing skills. I was away from this so long that in fact, I almost forgot my blog website.
Maybe that is a sign, that I should stop blogging. After all, I have Facebook, Twitter, Skype, etc. Or it could be a sign that I should kick my procrastination habbit to the kerb for good, and continue blogging. I do like to write, after all.
Either way, it's just trying to tell me something but I'm not listening to it.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.
Slight digression from my Law of Trust. I really hate that subject. Even the thought of it makes my skin curl. Anyway, here is my thought of the day:-
"People with issues-should we entertain or let it be?"
Growing up, I was the kid that everyone could depend on. The one who can, without a doubt, make things better and make things right. This is not a self-glorification, mind you, this is merely public opinion of me. Whether or not I like it, I will get things done. Whether I do it right, that's a whole different story.
So as you can see, I probably possess a 'can-do' attitude. I take everything in stride and if it fails, I move on. I just have to. But the thing is, I hate failing. Not the academic sense of failing but more of a making a decision and it consequentially fails. I will always berate myself for it, and I always regret for not taking the later. Thus moving on is hard to do. Stuck in a rut, that's what they say. I tell people I'm over the dilemma but the truth remains that the failure still brews in my head.
People say its human to make mistakes. I hate that saying. It always made me feel inadequate and incompetent, a dissapointment to many. So the moving on part may be harder then expected. So it brings me to this; is it ok for someone who cant get the moving on part right to tell someone else with issues that may be far worse than mine to move on when I myself cant do it? Or is it just better to lend an ear for rants?
Im being a hypocrite here aren't I? How can you give an advice when you yourself can even accept that very same advice? Kind of like a pot calling the kettle black case no? But does this mean that I cant give advice at all if I cant take it? I for one dislike the fact that just because I cant take my own advise, does not mean that I cant give it. It's sort of a thing I have developed over the years, giving advise like Im some sort of therapist. It's not my fault per se, but my friends just keep asking me like Im bloody Dr Psychiatrist.
Someone told me I should learn to listen instead. Accept the fact that not everyone wants advise but rather an ear for someone to listen to. Maybe that someone is right. Maybe I SHOULD try to be like that. Accept the fact that you cant control everything nor be asked to control stuff. I hope that sentence made sense, as how it did in my head. It's not that Im a control freak or anything, it's just that I prefer things to be guided to where it should be, certain and precise.
Certainty and precision. My two best and hated words. Lets just leave this for another time. As well as lost oppurtunity. So till the next post.
PS:I think Im going to start labelling my posts from now on.
PPS:I switched my blog up. A fresh perspective. What do you think?
Adieu.
"People with issues-should we entertain or let it be?"
Growing up, I was the kid that everyone could depend on. The one who can, without a doubt, make things better and make things right. This is not a self-glorification, mind you, this is merely public opinion of me. Whether or not I like it, I will get things done. Whether I do it right, that's a whole different story.
So as you can see, I probably possess a 'can-do' attitude. I take everything in stride and if it fails, I move on. I just have to. But the thing is, I hate failing. Not the academic sense of failing but more of a making a decision and it consequentially fails. I will always berate myself for it, and I always regret for not taking the later. Thus moving on is hard to do. Stuck in a rut, that's what they say. I tell people I'm over the dilemma but the truth remains that the failure still brews in my head.
People say its human to make mistakes. I hate that saying. It always made me feel inadequate and incompetent, a dissapointment to many. So the moving on part may be harder then expected. So it brings me to this; is it ok for someone who cant get the moving on part right to tell someone else with issues that may be far worse than mine to move on when I myself cant do it? Or is it just better to lend an ear for rants?
Im being a hypocrite here aren't I? How can you give an advice when you yourself can even accept that very same advice? Kind of like a pot calling the kettle black case no? But does this mean that I cant give advice at all if I cant take it? I for one dislike the fact that just because I cant take my own advise, does not mean that I cant give it. It's sort of a thing I have developed over the years, giving advise like Im some sort of therapist. It's not my fault per se, but my friends just keep asking me like Im bloody Dr Psychiatrist.
Someone told me I should learn to listen instead. Accept the fact that not everyone wants advise but rather an ear for someone to listen to. Maybe that someone is right. Maybe I SHOULD try to be like that. Accept the fact that you cant control everything nor be asked to control stuff. I hope that sentence made sense, as how it did in my head. It's not that Im a control freak or anything, it's just that I prefer things to be guided to where it should be, certain and precise.
Certainty and precision. My two best and hated words. Lets just leave this for another time. As well as lost oppurtunity. So till the next post.
PS:I think Im going to start labelling my posts from now on.
PPS:I switched my blog up. A fresh perspective. What do you think?
Adieu.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
A birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun
So Im turning 22. Can I give an eye-roll and a sarcastic yay for hitting the identical double digit of 2-2?
I have never been one who likes to blow things out of proportion and go full scale on celebrating the 'day'. The big day. I'd never really liked hosting parties. I dont know why, its not that I cant, but I just dont want to. The one thing I do like though, is an intimate gathering with close family and friends.
I get it, its a celebration of your 'big' day, but I feel that it's just another day in the year. Sure, that day seems to be extra special to many but, well, I don't know. Maybe it's because my Part 1 Finals are coming up ever so closely, and I have yet to be remotely prepared for it. I really hope its because of this that I'm feeling indifferent about my birthdays.
But, emotions aside, I will be 22 whether I like it or not. So, why not be excited about it. After all, so many 24 April babies will be doing just the same exact thing. Here's a little extract about my birthdate:-
"Taurus is the second sign of the astrological year and is known by its symbol, the Bull. Taureans are loyal, thrifty, kindhearted, and they possess great personal charm, good looks, and a lovely speaking voice."
The Taurus Woman
A Taurus woman is stylish, well-groomed, and socially involved. Whether she turns her energies to domestic or professional aims, she is certain to give it all that she has. Taurus women are stubborn, practical, and budget-minded. They have the ability to balance family and career life without losing their emotional equilibrium. These women have their feet planted firmly on the ground.
A Taurus born on April 24 is a sleek, sophisticated individual with a flair for the good life and a love of glamor. They are also talented, with a good sense of humor and the ability to laugh at themselves.
Friends and LoversBecause of their great personal charm, these individuals have a large social circle and plenty of admiring friends. In love, they are warm, affectionate, and loving partners. But it is not difficult for them to be alone, for they are emotionally self-sufficient.
Children and Family
The conventional side of April 24 individuals likes being part of a family unit; however, they can be mischievous, stubborn, and a little rebellious. They make protective parents who may have trouble allowing their children to make their own mistakes.
Career and Finances
These folks have keen instincts and usually manage to make cherished financial expectations pay off. Because they have a great deal of creative talent, they often find themselves as artists, designers, and instructors in multimedia arts. Good investment decisions are a snap for these savvy individuals.
Dreams and Goals
These energetic, irrepressible people tend to formulate definite career plans at an early age. At the same time, they're practical and patient. Fortuitously, April 24 individuals are expert at managing their financial future without help from professionals.
You know, I can relate to all these things. It's is actually true. Which is scary. Especially the emotioally sufficient part. Maybe that is why I don't have a significant other until now. But I'm not so sure about the creative talent part, I cant draw for nuts.
And guess what? I celebrate my birthday with these people:-
- Barbra Sterisand-singer/actor (born April 24, 1942)
- Cedric the Entertainer-actor (born April 24, 1964)
- Djimon Hounsou-actor (born April 24, 1964)
- Jean Paul Gaultier-fashion designer (born 24 April 1952)
- Kelly Clarkson-singer (born April 24, 1982)
- Sachin Tendulkar-cricket player for India (born 24 April 1973)
- Shirley MacLaine-actor (born April 24, 1934)
- Tyson Ritter-lead singer for All American Rejects (born April 24 1984)
Not such a bad day for April 24 huh?
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